i've been busy recently
but seriously i have no idea as to why i'm busy?

bleahx

econs paper sux today
didnt manage to place full fledge of concentration on it

and i didnt pay attention to those topics tested la
to add on to it

i was basically amazed by the thrusting till
i was busy laughing away
hahax

cant believe leon's so disgusting la
i only mentioned about grope
and wahman mentioned about thrusting

and LEON DEMO-ED it

YUCKX

haha

but i had a wonderful 4hr revision with them!

the paper..haix
no comments

then had dinner with "strawberry tart"
and i just felt that someone was just playing with me lo

act shy again
machiam go be actor!
hahax

and i have no idea
why he prefers to take neo prints with a guy
over a girl?

hmm...guys are born to be gays?

haix

but it's alright!
i'll be able to change him de!

sui ran i always say
accept others the way they are
but!
hahax

k la..i'm so bored
projects coming!

nono
it's been there

just that i never seemed to finish them all
but i will

reb ar!
cheer up! i know u very stressed
=)

and dear ting!
=) wo hen xiang ni!
wo hui cou kong pei ni de!
wo ai si ni le!

wow...time flies
i'm still assuming its friday today
when ta-dah

it's SUNDAY!

ding dong! yesterday was tiring!
bleahx..went down before noon
and rushed back home to take a nap

couldn't sleep so i happily did the econs ppt

sometimes i just love ppt!
but sometimes i hate them to the core

ppt v amusing one!
i was kinda amused when i was
first introduced MICROSOFT POWERPOINT!

which was like
erm...7 years ago?

ok..so i went out in the evening
and when the clock struck 12!
someone was throwing his temper la
and nearly dragged me to have a MORNING JOG LO!

but i managed to fight
my way through to take a cab home!

=) *smilex

so much for my happy ending!

today's dear's birthday!

HAPPY MATURE 18!

i have no idea whether it's a good thing or not
but hoped you enjoyed your day!

i'm sorry i couldn't make it today
but i know you understand de

school kinda sux day by day
projects to be submitted one by one

exams collapsing against me
sheet by sheet

and i feel like a total piece of shit

so many things to be done
so many thoughts to be sorted

bleahx...

today has been great
Harold came back with a new image
which made me go
*muhahahahahaha

people DO change!

even in weeks?

sigh

ya...like how things speed up within 5 days?

and all of the sudden
you are left with different roads to choose?

bleahx...
i'm so TIRED!

BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

BLOGGER ATE UP MY POST!

ARE YOU THAT HUNGRY!

SHIT YOU!
SHIT HIM!
SHIT EVERYBODY!

PLAY ME LO!
hai zhen tian shuo wo wan ni!
dao tou lai
shi ni wan wo!

HOW NICE!

happy birthday KAITING!
muhahahaha..now must be eating eating and eating lo!
eat somemore
eat somemore

tomorrow going eat again
hahax

today was like erm
school's short

and there's no school tomorrow

but my whole class is gonna head down
to holland V
for a celebration
to celebrate we didn't win to-to?

haha

anyway
wahman thanks ar!
your lunch treat was so filling!
next time got this kind of lobang must call me ar
haha...

but i prefer paychecks

tomorrow will be a fun day bahx

cux i don't have to return to school
just head down to holland V

and perhaps have a porny-lunch with my class

hahax

somehow
i realized that
the conversation btw the class
never left the theme of sex? porn?

bleahx...

so it all turned out to be
a joke?

or was it just another strategy?

GREAT!

tong hua li dou shi pian ren de

wang zi han gong zhu
bing bu shi yi dui de

i didn't know that you were so nice to me
or perhaps so protective of me
until today

sometimes it makes me think back on those days
how you treated me
how you regarded me

then i come to realize that
being your friend is much better off

thanks really
though i will try to be stubborn
to rebutt
to prove you wrong

deep down i understand your intentions de

i'm old enough to understand
things beyond the surface

but till date
i don't exactly understand how you brain works

i have no idea whether i should tell you the truth
but once i tell you the truth

your ego can't possibly take that

but i really feel like telling you

my brain is like having a war now la
too many things happened over the weekend
i need to take a breather
how nice it would be
if i'm able to take a break

i feel like going on cruise
muacksbaby interested?
but i know it won't happen
till end of the year

we die die also must go ok!
or we could go malaysia!

i have no idea if my appearence
had caused a disturbance or perhaps a threat

i have no intention of doing so

competition
well, i hate competitions

but on the other hand
i don't deny the fact that
the feeling of winning is great

i'm just stuck in between

i don't give a damn about winning
the sense of achievement is
just a moment of pride
enjoyment

let's put it in this way

i'm more practical
or materialistic if you insist

but...i'm just practical
not the latter

we could just do some sort of trading

you can win for all i care
overtake me for whatsoever shit

i don't give a damn

but perhaps you could do a kind deed
of providing me transportation fees

if you aren't willing
just take it that i'm nice

i'll just jolly well let you win

brrrrrrrrrr...

i was never interested in winning

unless you try to challenge me

haix...i hate this word

but

whatever la!

so many things happened these few days
i'm flooded with thoughts

thoughts that never occurred
to me till
recently
and in an unexpected way

i still remember those days
si jie mei say i do things got motive de

when i don't lo!

but now did i realize that
whatever one does
may hold an ulterior motive

be it for present or future benefits

haix...human beings ar...
SO TROUBLESOME!

i have no idea why
but men simply love to make assumptions

no wonder i end up like that!

perhaps its my fault too

but i'm still not willing
lower things
or give 'em all up

try harder...

and till then

we shall see!

how nice would it be
if life is like taking a shower

all worries all past memories
being washed away
with just a trickling of water

giving up everything for one person
is it worth all that trouble?

laughx

wo zai xing fu de men wai
que yi zhi dou jing bu lai

i've not reached the door yet
but i've seen people waiting outside
yet unable to get in

that's a very sad thing

i'm HUNGRY NOW!
but i'm urging myself not to eat!

i ate my dinner at 7 but i'm hungry la!

bleahx

must have eaten too much vegetables!

oh well
i need a change in life

but perhaps i'll still stick to this old life
enjoy la...
why push myself so hard...

bleahx

OH MAN!

the toto results are out la!

05 12 13 30 31 43

additional number
39

sighx...

i only had 3 numbers

*sobx
there goes one less chance to stike the lottery

oh man...
hahax...now have to depend on my classmates
to see whether they striked at least four of the numbers!

hope that they did!
PLEASE!
we still wanna go HYATT and celebrate de!

PLEASE!

oh man...we arent greedy la
don't have 2.5 million also can
$20,000 is enough to split for the class

what's life like when ya 17?
18? 19? 40?

took a bus home today
was thinking through lots
it had been a long time
since i took a bus trip - alone

thought about the fog-ged future
the windering past
and the routin-ed present

what i'm pursuing in life
what i'm looking for
what i've missed

i realized
i'll never find the key
right back to your heart
after these years

what's the use
if you just appear every now and then
to ask, to care
when you'll probably perish into thin air

all i could do was
just to sit back and relax and
enjoy life?
oh well, if that is what you expect from me

your wish's fulfilled
what's next?

haix.
some things
are hard to be comprehended

..perhaps

.....

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

i'm still pissed but i shall try to be happy with the balloons with disgusting nipples!

thanks dear! and shi nian hao you!

BLEAHX!

SHIT THE TAXI DRIVER
FUCK THE TAXI DRIVER

WHAT THE HELL ARE TAXI DRIVERS DOING

THEY THINK THOSE WHO TAKE CABS
ARE ROAD-IDIOTS!

SHIT HIM LA!

i'm not trying to condmen all taxi drivers
but some of them are damn fucking irresponsible
and evil la
CHEATERS!
whats the problem with them?

JUST BECAUSE I TAKE CABS DOESNT MEAN I DUNNO MY WAY ROUND SINGAPORE!

HELLO!
do you have to take the damn longer route
when i actually told you which route to take?

and keep circling round the same places again and again!

PASSENGERS DON'T COMPLAIN
BECAUSE WE ARE UNDERSTANDING!
BECAUSE WE KNOW YOU ALL ARE JUST MAKING A LIVING!

but that doesnt mean we are fucking gullible la!

WE DON'T MAKE A FUSS
CUX WE ARE JUST BEING NICE OK!

I JUST WANNA TAXI DRIVERS TO KNOW THAT
KIDS THESE DAYS ARE CLEVER OK!

YOU SHOULD BE GLAD THAT I'M NOT 18!
AND I DUN OWN A DRIVING LICENCE NOR A CAR!
BUT IF I OWN EITHER ONE OF THEM!
YOU WON'T GET TO EARN A LIVING!

I GREW UP TRAVELLING AROUND SINGAPORE OK!
AND I KNOW WHICH WAY IS THE FASTEST, SHORTEST
AND WITH THE LEAST CARS DURING PEAK HOURS!

BUT I'M NOT EVIL LIKE SOME FUCKING TAXI DRIVERS!

BLEAHX!
i don't deny the fact that some taxi drivers are nice!
but some are damn!
EVIL CHEATERS!

LIKE THE COMFORT TAXI DRIVER WHO DROVE ME HOME!
HE WAS READING THE PAPERS LA WHILE DRIVING LA!
WHAT KINDA ATTITUDE IS THAT!
I KNOW I'M ONLY 17 LA!
BUT I'M PAYING FOR THE SERVICE!
AND IF I COMPLAIN!
THERE WON'T BE OF ANY USE!
CUX I'M NOT AN ADULT!

SHIT HIM!

IF HIS KIDS GETS CHEATED
WHAT DO YOU THINK!

AND I WOULD LIKE TO MAKE IT CLEAR!
PEOPLE WHO TAKE CABS MAY NOT BE RICH LO!
SO STOP CHEATING THEM
IN CASE YOU GET CHEATED!

I'M STILL DAMNED PISSED!
bleahx!
I MAY BE YOUNG BUT I KNOW THE ROADS WELL!
AND ITS NOT MY FIRST TIME TAKING A CAB
AND I JOLLY WELL KNOW HOW MUCH IT COSTS FROM ONE DESTINATION TO ANOTHER!
WAIT TILL I'M AN ADULT
AND I SHALL COMPLAIN THOSE FUCKING ATTITUDE OF WAITRESSES, WAITORS, TAXI DRIVERS!
some of them are really great people!
but some are there to be the blacksheeps!

SHIT HIM LA!
ARGH! SPOLIT MY DAY!

to jas and vian:
i'm sorry gals, i feel so guilty la!
='(

DAMN HIM!
ARGH!
AND TAXI DRIVERS ARE THE RUDEST PEOPLE!
ITS A FACT! THEY EARN MONEY IN THE MOST RUTHLESS WAYS!
ARGH!

sorry to some of them who are nice people
but i just cant take it anymore
its not the first time lo!
AND I HATE COMFORT TAXIS!
but some of you might think its nice la!
BUT ALL I CAN SAY!
IT MIGHT BE DAMN EX AT TIMES!
AND THEIR ATTITUDE SUCKS MOST OF THE TIMES!

PLEASE REVIEW THE SERVICE YOU GUYS PROVIDE!

Eminem's Mockingbird
playing repeatedly in the background

what's happiness all about
that song has a deep meaning
bout happiness and life

I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry

But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what
destiny is

But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

yeah...it'll just all be a dream
things will be fine
life still has to go on

does anyone have any idea
what song is playing in the background
for the citi-gems advertisment?

haha..well, citigems looks nice!
after SK...

so i went to their website
http://www.citigems.com.sg

and ta-dah..saw lots of diamonds..
ranging from cheap ones to erm
well, tian wen shu zhi...

i shall earn my very first own diamond ring
oh ya and gals,
did u know that wearing a ring on your right hands
means ya INDEPENDENT?

cool!

bleahx..this costs only 48 bucks lo!

oh well,
muacksbaby can get me any of the 3 below for my 21st bday
i dun expect much ok!


hahax..or if you gals wanna get me a nicer one
or much more expensive one
i'll never say no!

and SUNNY can jolly well give me this...
it costs $598

OR

perhaps this...
this costs $1498


OR

get me this 1 carat set...


i won't mind if anyone wants to get me any items from tiffany!

*bleahx
i'm dreaming?

i guess earning it myself is way much faster!


wish me luckx into getting more assets of my own!

i'm going my friends house soon..play mahjong and slack
and i'll be meeting muacksbaby later... =)
lao yu sheng ar lao yu sheng!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

no school today...i didn't pon school
just that there were no lessons
i'm a very guai student de

wellx...my fingers are bloody red now!
*eeww...
i prefer rebx brown leh..
BUT suan le...

went nhss today
no point going back le
nothing to see
nothing to gossip

met muackxbaby
short lunch...

somehow or what
whenever i'm with them
i can imagine us in the 20's

i can imagine some of them becoming career ladies
some of them becoming tai-tais
but will be one bunch of great girls
who will still love dining with great ambience
and making fun of the waiters! =)

somehow or what
i just feel that the 6 of us
we're rather fortunate bahx...
even though we may have our own personal probs
but it's just that
compared to other groups
other situations
we're much more fortunate...
let's hold a party in 2009!
10years of kissing babies?
*bleahx
i'm thinking too much

the song dao dai by jolin
has been playing in my comp since 6pm
it's great!

你累积给的伤害　我是真的很难释怀
there's many things
we still can't bear to part
it may be happy moments
hurtful memories
but we still can't overcome them all
today a questioned cross my mind

"Are we happy?"
i observed the girls
somehow i just felt that
deep down
we aren't?
or am i wrong... =X

终于看开爱回不来　而你总是太晚明白　
最后才把话说开　哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来　我们面前太多阻碍　
你的手却放不开　宁愿没出息求我别离开

xin de yi nian
xin de xi wang

xin nian kuai le! =)

muaaaaaaaackXx!

i'm such a nice young lady!
did housework for the whole morning

no wonder SUNNY loves me
the way i am
being his personal, private housewife

eew...i'm feeling rather tired yet relieved
that all housework is done

when.....

MEL STRIKES A BOMB!

*bleahx

i simply don't understand why
they love to use Chinese New Year as an excuse
to give us e-leaning work
which is like a pile of moulding shit...

i hate e-learning!

come to think of it...
the new term actually starts tomorrow
and guess what...
this week in CNY week
and i'll only be having lessons
tomorrow and friday!

but!
i have one heap of work waiting to be touched..

New project assignments are up
another hectic, stress-free beginning, stressful ending term!

come to think of it
there's a number of projects due
- BCA PBL#2
- CAT's skit
- IAC's research project
- BMGT project
anything else that i missed?
oh ya...powerpoint slides for BMGT!

*oh man, who said life was beautiful?

there goes our lovely plan to fly kites tomorrow
how nice can that be?
i'm feeling damn disappointed!

失去的就不能挽回了吗

很多时候
很多事
人都毫无勇气去面对
毫无勇气去接受
去承认

人是脆弱的吧

身边虽有很多朋友
生活里有好多莫名的路客
但最终会想起来
还是单独一个人

人总是害怕失去
但他们可否想过
他们也曾离他人而去
也曾伤害过他人
虽事过境迁
伤痛将永远永远的被埋没在心里

若拿得起
就要学会放得下

你能忘记一切
将一切放下吗？

得不到的
人总是越想得到

难道越容易得到的
就不会真心地去对待
就不会好好地珍惜吗？

my last paper ended yesterday
i was stuck with PMT (pre-menstrual test)

and i ended with PMS

hax..not funny at all in the single bit

yesterday was shan bday..
hoped that she enjoyed it!
18 years old..*sighx

today's my brother's bday..
he seems contented with
just a "happy bday" from each of us
and getting a pair of shoes
and a bottle that he can shoot others

he's 12 years old
by the way
it seems so cool
to be easily contented
but i aint

had 2 full shopping days
finished everthing today!
i feel so relieved...

had a wonderful day with jie, k.ting and rebx
they wanted to had a pedicure done
but apparently
it seemed planned that
they won't have it la...
cux all shops they intended to patronize
were full with appointments
*laughs

what's funny is that..
care bears are also out of stock!
can you believe this?
care bears lo
i wonder why barneys aint...

tomorrow onwards will
be another wave of events

getting my nails all painted by the weekend
and everything trimmed
hopefully

but i'll be flying kites on monday
*wondering
should i get my nails done first?

from experience
last minute works
does the worst pedi-manicure...

argh!
i'm still feeling down...

what's broken can never be mended
time will, perhaps heal everything
eventually, scars will still be left
deep down behind

human beings
are constantly looking for a change
hoping the good will become better
the better will be the best

but has anyone
looked back at what we have done
to take the initiative
to place down that unreachable ego
to talk things out in nudity

apparently
it takes two hands to clap

Can what's broken be mended?
Does time really fix everything?

i doubt so

came home with an overloaded brain

stayed out to study
somehow only a portion managed to
enter that teeny weeny slot of my brains

to tell you the truth
its not being inflated by what's gonna
be tested for tomorrow

perhaps i always had exams luck
that neither failed me
nor brought me to greater heights
i should be grateful
that at least i end up with
respectable grades
sadly, i ain't

sought refuge at OLH today
found some sense of comfort there
it's just like a supermart home
always be able to find a sense of belonging
and comfort in that small centre

no one was there
except this young kiddo
having some "self-tuition"
chatted with cheng about those young kids

a peaceful place with the best ambience to study
since none of my peers were around
i didn't get to install much though

it's been quieter there
i still remember the days
my tuition group played and joked for
one whole day instead of finishing our assigned work
*laughs
missed yuanshen, jiayi [sotong]
dragon, thomas, joel, and 2 other guys
funny guys but somehow i forgotten their names

didnt manage to observe anyone
but had my flow of thoughts

why is it always that
2's a pair...3's a crowd
no one loves being the odd one out

sometimes we aren't given a choice
there are times when we tend to
forget about this friend we have
though we never forget to keep others
deep in our hearts

why?
oh man, i hate whys...
*slaps my mouth

going shopping tomorrow!
*cheers
and on friday
and i got a job! =)
i'm so happy!
*cant wait for time to fly past me...

inflation

staring into blankness
with a pile of notes begging in front of you
to just take a peek at 'em

the heart tells you otherwise
bringing you far far away
to NEVERLAND

inflation is caused by
the excessive demand over supply
that was rather,
what i concluded

why do people always have to demand
more than what one can give?
stop inflating me with
whys and questions and doubts...

to me, at the very least
there are infinite whys in this world
that will neither be explained or perhaps
revealed

so perhaps there's no point
in demanding an answer
to questions
and there's no conclusion
to whys...

its kinda hurtful at times
escaping from truth
yet unable to hide the consequences

knowing the present
will never be like the past

a broken glass
will leak no matter how well
you try to mend it

if it's broken
it'll never be the same again
no matter how hard you try
to pursue
to mend
to apologise
to beg for forgiveness

learn it late and it will be too late

human beings
never learnt to be obedient for once

always taking things for granted
leaving themselves hurt
till the very end

never gonna understand
the complex feelings behind it
never meant for things
to end up this a way
yet finding it hard
to give an explanation
i owe you an apology ;i'm sorry

life is just like tsunami
it swept away everything
leaving behind
white virgin beaches
burying those sorrows
that perhaps will never
find a consoling soul...