I'm feeling so much relieved now after talking to my qing fu!

Confessions do make lives easier, don't they?

I just feel so much more at ease now after the whole of yesterday, questioning my own actions and thoughts. What the hell was I doing yesterday? I did that purposely, I presume. Perhaps I was just badly in needs. But I'm feeling so much better now, like I've just confessed my sins. And perhaps I wake up to the morning's sunshine overwhelmed with guilt once again.

I don't mean it...I don't mean it...I don't mean it
*stomping

LOL! I feel so much like a kid.

All thanks to my qing fu lo! Flirtatious qing fu! Who dumped his girl for years for another girl! I'm sorry for reading through what's on your mind! But I just felt it...

And I shall give all my support for SI JIE MEI! The 4angels sent down to earth to save devil-y deeds of men!

It's perfectly fine to have flings...to have villas...to go shopping...and of course to pamper yourself!

Love ya gals!

Love Stephanie since they just love their exams!
*hugs

Silence is what I need.

Peace is what I'm trying to seek.

Nonetheless, I've failed to compromise myself with peace after all these while. Perhaps it isn't just peace that I'm seeking for. It's about recognition, about status, about fame and power. Like just any other, I'm just trying to feed my self esteem and that ego buried beneath that feminine side of a lady.

Standing here at end of the path, I'm 17. 18 soon. It's supposed to be a flourishing age.Where a young girl's blossoming, flaunting what's inside her, beaming with glamour. But I guess, in 2005 A.D.,you'll never expect a young lady in her teens to be as innocent as those during your mum's or perhaps grandmother's period.

If Eve had resisted that temptation of an apple, I won't be able to be sit down here typing this whole thing out in total darkness, feeling utterly confused. And looking so forward to watching the whole season of Desperate Housewives again.And my girlfriends won't be perhaps by his side now praying that this might never end or staying home on a friday night feeling miserable. And all of us won't be wondering at if we're just having delusions.

Desperation.

Hunger.

I'm feeling hungry now. Mac. Cheese anyone?

Silence. Shit everyone with cheese.

Acoustics. Somehow I felt that there's something beyond this word. I woke up feeling desperately in need to resolve this term acoustics. Yet, I'm still not satisfied with the definitions I found out of it.

Words are said in a breeze. Words are said to make others feel better. Words could be said to make one feel happy.Words might hurt in moments of spite. Words might be said out of jealousy.

It doesn't cost to have a flirt.
It's dangerous to have a fling.
It's tiring to have a long term relationship.
And, it costs a bomb to have constant lavish dates.

Which would you choose?

I would go for the first one.
He would go after the second one.
She would pursue that of the third one.
And, I would love to have that last go too.

Is this the only way whereby the 2 of us could communicate?

If gorging yourself with high calories food makes you feel contented, go ahead with it even though you might have to double up your exercise.

If drowning yourself with alcohol makes you feel more comfy at heart even though you know you might have a hangover, go ahead with it even though you might have a hangover.

If going on an unintended shopping spree helps to de-stress, go ahead with it even though you might have to starve for the upcoming weeks.

If speeding helps to relieve that frustration in you, go ahead with it even though you might get a speeding ticket.

If singing out loud signifies that joy in you, go ahead with it even though you might be stared at.

If running around naked might help build up your confidence with you figure, go ahead with it even though people might say ya shameless.

If wearing that top/dress you think makes you feel so gorgeous, go ahead with it even though your friends might start commenting on you.

If hugging him makes you feel more secured, go ahead with it even though he might not like it.

If telling him that you miss him dearly makes you feel so blissful, go ahead with it even though he might not appreciate it.

If spilling your confessions to him is what you've been wanting to do all these years, think thrice before you actually do that, cause you might get rejected.

If you intend to get into a relationship with that platonic friend of yours, think thrice before you actually do that, cause it might be just friendship afterall instead of love.

That's how I felt today.

Sometimes I wondered if my sixth senses are for real. Or are they being drawn up to make me feel happy with the way I wanted things to be. I really hate that idea of guess-what's-on my-mind game. It's nothing but shit, degrading my intelligent brain cells into retarded ones. What's the problem with me? What happened to those promises I made with my image?

Time and distance made me realize my significance. Is that considered good or bad? Good cause it helps boost my self-esteem, make me cherish what I have. Bad cause many things are beyond my control and that we've yet many obstacles to overcome.

Life might seem so much easier yet boring without challenges.

Oh man...

Jasline and Vivian blogged earlier than I did.

Hmph! How nice it would be if we had our own villa, our own car! Wohoo...it'll be so much fun!

Vian ar...quick leh! Ask crane to build a Si Jie Mei Villa and a Muacksbaby one!
Then we'll get cars so as to save us the trouble of waiting and being cheated by cabbies. Yeah! I'm looking so forward to it!

Check out what I did! It's nice! Ok, at least I think it is. I won't give a damn about whether anyone likes it or not. Cause I'm sick of hearing people say, oh it's so nice and oh it's so fugly! What's the problem with you huh? Does it matter to you! Argh! So long as I'm happy, I'm happy...tralala...you're just jealous that I'm happy!

You can see Vian going crazy! She's kissing the lady in the mag. Yucks! And poor Jasline, I'll help you kill the A's ok! She was mugging la while me and Vian took pictures and tried out so many stuffs. But well, I guess she was distracted in the end la! Can you see Jasline banging into the wall? And can you see our hands! My dear's hand is just SO SMALL! We could even stack it up according to size...Steph ar...where's your hand? We'll take our hands and legs one day k? And do manicure! And live in a VILLA together! Wohoo!

vian had a haircut; my image; mei tui dearie mugging so hard; wah! diamonds!; I LOVE NHSS; how deep is your cleavage; you can't * w/o fragrance; say cheese; muacks muacks

That's all folks! For now I have to go! Yeah! Tata...I LOVE MY ATTRACTIVE SHIT!