Wednesday, May 18, 2005

毕业旅行
- 黄湘怡

曲： 伍思凯 词： 李焯雄 编： Unknow
但是 都已经 都已经来不及 当时没办法说明
现在反而清晰 错过的风景以及
爱情亲爱的你冰块敲着杯子的声音
这里空气比较透明 计划的旅行没有 顾客的小餐厅淡季

街上有点 冷清 我却渴望人群随行 不想专注在这一刻
我想你的心情 碰不到节庆 也没有烟火游行
不常有流星 没太多的任性 我会适应我一个人
毕业旅行 但是都已经都已经来不及 曾经坚持的约定

现在谁还履行错过的风景 以及爱情亲爱的你 碰不到节庆
也没有烟火游行 不常有流星 没太多的任性
我会适应这爱情的毕业旅行
但是都已经 都已经 来不及曾经坚持的约定

现在谁还履行错过的风景 以及爱情 亲爱的你
还在想你 有没有感应 没名字的爱情 许多没实现的事情
来不及看的身影 来不及说的 所有心情

there are many times in life
whereby we'll be chanced upon
making a choice

come to think of it

many things were already decided
before you could even make a decision

i just felt that

choices are just there to prove the existence of democracy

choices that we make at times are prolly just
what we felt that is the best choice
or perhaps have the best outcome

the decision that you've made
may not be what you wanted

to put it in other words
you chose it not with 100% of your heart

well

choices are there for us to choose
decisions are made just to
signify or rather force the chooser to accept
what's been decided beforehand

it's just to inform the chooser that
that's the best for you among all

just accept the fact that
it's not the way you want it to be

don't you think so?

do we really have that choice?

or are we just making a fool out of all the choices?

let's take for example
if ya a guy and out on a date with your girlfriend

you guys wanna have ice cream
and that cafe just lets you have one flavour per order

you love vanilla
your girlfriend hates vanilla and loves chocolate

well

the best solution is to have 2 orders
so each of you could get what you love, right?

but sadly, must act loving abit ma
so order one lo, right?
can also save money!

so you'll just order chocolate ice cream in the end right?

though you simply want to have vanilla

am i right?

your girlfriend may be there telling you

"i'm fine with vanilla
just choose what you like"

but apparently
all of us knows that your girlfriend hates vanilla
and is die die only enjoys chocolate ice cream

eventually
you'll just settle with chocolate ice cream

despite the fact that you could heed the advice of your girlfriend
to choos what you really like

so what's the actual point of choosing?

oh man

that's why i hate making a choice

DO I HAVE A CHOICE?

"YES"

oh well

sadly, i don't like to lie to myself

I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE!

think about what i've said

i've been thinking about it for 3 days
and somehow
i think i'm right

we don't really have a choice, do we?
i was here at 22:16

i want a pair of birkenstock

muhahaha!

in fact i wanted it long ago
but somehow i think it's kinda silly to spend more than 80 bucks
on a pair of sandals

i still think it's silly and
a total waste of money

but...
i still want it!

ok...i shall be a good girl

and save up

and get myself a pair

just imagine how my parents will react if
i used their money to get a pair of birkenstocks

so i shall get it with my own money!
muhahaha!

i'll never be able to get it then
cux i never really learnt how to save

*sigh

what ya going to see next may have hyper effects...
muhahaha!


















all mei mei right?
still got lots lots lots!


but hor!
too many to copy n paste!

and i found 2 pairs
flowery flowy!




haha!

not bad la hor...but i don't think it's nice!
*winks


i shall get a pair of birkenstocks!
I WILL!
i was here at 16:00

Monday, May 16, 2005

changed my skin
WHITE!

i'm trying to act innocent
so just let me be

i'm innocent!

you want the passion // i want the PENDENT!

how brilliant can i be?

was watching desperate houswives then
and recieved SHE's wo ai ni's MV

but sadly it's the short version
i want the long version one
does anyone have it?

came online to find some peace and entertainment

chatting to yiwei about songs
bob was telling me that no one is entertaining him
and fangming kept pestering whether the baby's mine!
the baby's mine, for heaven's sake...
*grinz

and many more...not lively enough
or well soul-y enough to keep me going for tonight

just finished another set of vcds
2 days 20 vcds!

i came online to find someone to really chat with but to no avail
no one seems to clique with me tonight

just feeling abit empty inside
desperately finding someone to fill that empty me
yet leaving me disappointed

cause it seems that
on a monday night!

everyone seems to be having the blues

and none of my soul-mates seem to be free tonight

oh wells

i still have 2 tamagotchi to keep me entertained

i miss SUNNY!
and i miss SRI!
i miss that whole bunch of people
that atmosphere!

cheer up peeps!

how come when someone around me is feeling down
it's always cause of relationship problems?

i have no idea what to say but

how come guys these days are so fickle!
shuo yi tao zuo yi tao!

feelings change even faster than singapore's weather!

what is this man!
ask them might as well go for trans op

dun be nan ren go be nu ren!

*ARGH!
i was here at 22:58

Friday, May 13, 2005

it always happens
that scent that i simply hate yet love

was woken up by this scent
that scent i would say

sitting on the bed
searcing for the source of the scent
hoping to see something familiar
but as usualto no avail

i'm alway reminding myself and those around me not to live in the past
but it just seems that i'm one of thosewho are still lingering on the path of history

forgiveness is what i need
yet i just can't bring myself to forgive him
neither could i just simply hate him
nor forgive myself

its that contradicting feel once again

there's always this point of time
that i recall of what happened then

it's been one and a half years
well, soon to be 2 whole years

from minimal contact to till date
we've lost touch

sometimes i wonder what the hell am i doing

ignorance isn't a nice game that i love to play

yet it has become a part and parcel of my life

and i believe that of many people out there
that's somehow considered one of the symptoms of love
"from my point of view"

its a nice scent though
a comforting scent i hope to find in someone i could lean upon

somehow its that scent that's confusing me
that is perhaps one of the reasons behind my actions

i shall wait for that scent to appear once again
hopefully it will appear

but for now
he shall remain as that "zui shou xi de mo shen ren"

i was chatting to this doctor
who looks like mr peh

that mr peh
first love of jasline
who was once a cleaner
and a very poor thing physics cum NCC teacher

back to this doctor
he's cute i would say

always stopping by to chat with me whenever i got to see him
dropping by his clinic in the morning would be the nicest thing to do

8am
he would be dressed in either a collared top and pants
or simple that outfit that is somehow considered an uniform?

well, his hair would be rather messy
just imganie

coal black hair with a few strands standing at the back
that few strands is prolly due to his much needed sleep
sleepy eyes trying to stretch apart beneath his glasses
and secretly yawning now and then

just the thought of it makes me laugh

he's quite a poor kid though
working practically everyday without fail

there's another doctor round the clinic that's rather cute too
but well, i haven't got the chance to be approached by him
*sobx

then i pondered for a moment
there's nothing wrong with having a crush on your doctor right?

not forgetting that tutor...who said it was a crime to fall in love with your doctor or tutor?

it's not like we're committing adultery or trying to have pre-marital sex
that might cause you to be an un-wed mum!

there's nothing wrong
i wouldn't be surprised if my friends told me she's marrying her tutor this very minute

on the whole
from my soon to be 18 years...tutors are usually cute!

doctors too but somehow i think they are too busy with other people's lives that
they can't be bothered with their partners

so there's nothing wrong with
falling in love with you TUTOR!

*grinz
(specially dedicated to one of my friends)
i was here at 22:13

Thursday, May 12, 2005

i was here at 18:01

Monday, May 09, 2005

there are perhaps many things in life
that we'll never come to appreciate it until
the day it went away

yet they usually caught you up at the least expected moment
leaving you in a total mess of shit
all you could do was to just
take a deep breathe and gradually digest whatever shit that has been thrown at you
and eventually adapt and live with it all

vivid memories of the past regretful moments starts flashing back
during this period

yet there's this small little saturn-y voice
that constantly lingers in your head
reminding you faithfully that
"IT'S TOO LATE! THERE'S NO TURNING BACK!"

better be late than never will then make no sense

that late guilt eventually
places you into a great dilemma
leaving you unattended, unprotected

your human's nature will then play a part
you'll try to break-free with that scarce resource
given to you

that's how growing up came about

if you manage to breakaway
you'll perhaps receive my"CONGRATULATIONS"

which signifies the permit to enter
the HALL of independence and maturity

no? yes? it just depends
if you're still trapped in within
you'll probably never be able to witness if the grass is always greener on the other side
till the day you manage to untie that stubborn knot

there's no point living in the past

only future awaits men
yet the future just seems to vague

why?

that's because we are the carvers of the future!
i was here at 12:48