school ended at 11 today
fate never crossed

met the girls today
or rather vivian and stephanie

chatted for awhile
before meeting my parents
haix

how nice would it be if si jie mei lives together
maybe one of these days
the four of us chose to be single
and we shall live together!
and enjoy our high lifestyle
pampering ourselves
*grinz

but i wouldn't mind
if the four of us shares one husband

a rich one
of course!

met my parents
cause they said they wanna
go to the airport to fetch my bro

he's back from england today
arriving in the evening
and they are all prepared before noon
SIAOX~

in the end i came home all alone
to enjoy the peace and tranquility

while my parents went touring around singapore
i simply have no idea as to
why and how they spent their whole day

it's none of my business
anyway
i went marketing

bought food to be stored in the fridge
and bought some canned foods

in case you guys have no idea
i haven't ate a proper meal for AGES!

i've been eating out,
da baos,
junk food!

my mum hasn't cooked for ages
cook as in cook a proper meal
she hasn't boiled soup for
erm
months?
a month...

how nice!
and i've been eating dinner alone
if i'm home

sigh

tonight will be the same
since i cant be bothered to fetch my bro
home alone
with the tv
and i shall be nice to myself

to cook up a feast

or i shall eat out
no...i shall stay home

i need to be alone
peace!

not only has my mum stopped cooking

she has stopped doing household chores
for erm
2 weeks?
GREAT!
so i spent 2 hours doing
all the household chores today

i was wondering what has gotten into me today

marketing and doing chores

grooming of a housewife?

like a piece of shit

i can see myself in a few years time
working
being alone

but it's fine
i'm used to life being alone

come to think of it
did i chose to be alone
or am i really alone?

i chose to be alone?
perhaps

sometimes i just cant be bothered to entertain
people whom i don't wish to entertain

imagine going out with someone
then listening to him talk
and bleahx
smile fakingly
as if you enjoyed his company!

i'm not bored to that extent of
torturing myself!

in the past
perhaps i would do such a thing

but somehow after new year
i prefer to have silence
not silence
but peace

not peace but
i have no idea what it is

don't ask why

it's like this

i would rather she never said anything
it made me felt worse
i was perfectly fine this morning
till the unwanted was brought in

innocently
accidentally